Justification

It always amazes me how I can justify anything I do. This weekend was one of those in which I would have previously justified my actions but since I'm supposed to be breaking up with myself, I'm not going to do that on this blog.

This weekend:

- I drank. Since giving you times, amounts or reasons would be justifying it I'm not going to do so.

- I slept with previously mentioned emotionally unavailable man.

-I ate some unhealthy foods.

I also:

-Worked out pretty intensely.

-cleaned my apartment.

The saddest part of this weekend was realizing that I had lost a friend. Without telling a sob story, one of my bad decisions on a night of drinking at the end of 2010 has led to someone I care very much about cutting me off. This makes me sick because I know it was my fault and there's not much I can do to fix it. This break up was supposed to prevent things like this from happening but I guess with anything, there are residual effects. Let's just hope I can keep from making bad decisions in the future. Thus far, in 2011, I've done a decent job of it. If anything, having to type my actions out is helping me take responsibility for them. Amen for the Internet.